Jigsaw

I would never wish that someday I would look back and think of how everything was like being in the past when it was just yesterday that I had the most wonderful time. I realised that letting go isn't as easy as it sounds. It's already more than a year since we've last talked to each other and I still think that there are plenty of clarifications that have yet to be made since she uttered the saddest words to me. I'm not being a saddist or something as I'm now living a wonderful life with someone I love but the thought of her keeps coming back.

I wonder whether is it the point where I couldn't accept the fact that we couldn't even be friends. What was it that I really had done wrong that had resulted the outcome which was worse than being caught red handed for two-timing? Funny as it seems, I wouldn't really want to bring this up but I wish she's reading this now. I've a wonderful lady with me now and I wouldn't wanna spoil the things in life that I'm having right now. I'm enjoying every bits of it but somehow, the thought of missing a puzzle to complete the jigsaw is haunting me badly now. When will the time come where each slot of questions in my head will be filled in with answers to solve the greatest jigsaw in my life? I wonder...